Saturday, May 9, 2009

So No One Told You Life was Gonna Be this Way...

I haven't updated in AWHILE!! whew! SO much has been going on. It's crazy! Since the last time I updated this is what has happened:

-My Not really. But I am a young lady in my early twenties who has a lot going for her, so I can't complain much!

-Disney College Program Send-off Party: FUN! Free lunch and the meeting of other people who are going down there from GCSU for the DCP as well! I was the only attractions person there...pretty cool I think!

-Lifeguard Certification: I am still certified, but I went to help and I got to drown 6 times in a row at the end of the day on Saturday. I was exhausted, but it was a lot of fun too.

-Braves game: We lost to the Mets. Go figure.

-First GCSU Baseball game: We beat Columbus State! yay! :)

-FINALS: UGHHHH! Along with all the papers, projects, and other crap teachers assign at the end of the semester, I had to take multiple tests. I did okay I guess. My classes were all hard this semester.

-This week has been a week of "lasts." The last Bible Study dinner. The last time to eat at El Tequila. The last Thursday night in Milledgeville. Although I will be back here in the spring for one more semester, everything is coming to a end for our group of friends. Brittany and Brittani are moving to Athens. Megan and I are moving to Florida. Vanessa is moving wherever God leads her. Callie is staying in Milledgeville by herself...poor girl. Magen is getting married. Its just all happening so fast and I want it to slow down, but I am not sure how to make it slow down. I have felt this way A LOT lately. Sometimes I feel like I am watching my life happen through a window. Like I am a spectator watching a reality show. There are moments when I want to press pause and live in that exact minute for days and days. Like at El Tequila on Cinco de Mayo. All my girls were there and we were all laughing and just having fun. Sure, we all had stuff to do or work to be turned in, but for a little while we forgot about our stress and it felt like that moment would never end, but it too ended.

College is ending and it's terrifying. I don't know what I want to do with my life. I don't know where I will be living in a year. No I am not graduating, but in a sense I feel like I am. I am moving from my comfort zone to a whole different state. I won't be able to drive home every other weekend when I need a mom fix and a hug from my daddy. I won't be able to drive to see my big brother or sister in law when I want to vent about the stupid boy who is being an idiot. I won't be able to watch my niece grow or play peek-a-boo with her. There are so many things that I feel like I am losing and I am going to miss out on. That's the thing with life though. Once you finally get comfortable and gain a sense of normalcy something happens and it is all mixed up and changed. We have to learn to adapt and carry on, no matter how hard it may seem.

Through all the craziness though I can rest assured that there is one thing that never changes; the love my Heavenly Father's has for me. God is my strength. I know He won't let anything happen to me that He and I can't handle together. I know He will be there for me when I need my parents to hug and comfort me but are back in Georgia. He will listen to me and guide me when my best friends are thousands of miles away. God is everlasting and I know He will never leave my side.

Growing up is scary. As much as I try to fight it, it is happening and it isn't slowing down.
I love you ladies. Ya'll are some of the best friends a girl could ever ask for :)


  1. Nice blog! Your life is fun, exciting, and of course, a little scary. You are ready for anything that pops up. Little by little you are getting things on your "checklist" done, so you can breathe free... Try to find something good in every day. Start everyday with a song in your heart. No matter what you face, God will carry you through it. We are only a few hours away, misisng you more than you'll be missing us! We are the square, the old-fashioned...etc. We love you, Kari. Rejoice in the Lord and this opportunity! Mom

  2. Woah, hey tears! Thanks lol

    We have had a very blessed 4 years at GCSU & I'm sure the trip won't end. or it better not at least. This was a good summary of how I feel also!

    Thank you for being such a great friend for so many years & memories. Here's to the next chapter of life. Let's live it up...we're still young :)

  3. Hi Kari Beth, I really like your blog. Themed parties, YES! My name is Macy and I'm going to be in the Vacation Planner role starting Aug. 10. My future roommate also goes to GCSU. Hope to see you there!